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The answers given here are profound. It would seem that they shouldn't be. The tragedy is that we know they are. I have found myself in a place and time where I have a choice. I can either deal with this or, chose to go on as I always have. It is imperially remarkable that we can go through our lives with this issue in place and yet function at the highest of levels. I have sought out pain to replace the pain my parents can no longer provide. I am older and wiser but yet, no smarter.
One of the previous answers speaks to spiritual bankruptcy. That answer has completely taken me back. It has prompted me to do some very deep seeking and I have concluded that the lack of self-love is the culprit. Throughout this entire endeavor, I have tried countless ways to mitigate the damage but yet, I am always lead back to the same place with the same question. Why?
Why is a question I may never know the answer to. I would like to believe my parents didn’t know any better. But, in the end, they should have known better and it was their responsibility to know better. They raised four kids, one died on his 18th birthday. The three remaining, all have the same issue. I am amazed at the extent we will go to just to be “happy.” The abuse I have sought out is as remarkable as it is tragic. I am completely amazed, I had no idea what was going on.’
I made myself in business and accumulated many possessions. Recently, I purposely divested myself of my possessions with hope that I could find the answer to one question, why am I so unhappy. I am unhappy because I lack love, they say “love is divine” and I not capable of having it. Love is what I seek and that is what evades me.
Thank-you for your help
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