Does this board particularly make anyone else nervous?

I see how close people get to their Ts and it legitimately terrifies me that someday I will get that close to my T, because I don't really get close to anyone and I'm okay with that. I have acquaintances and such, but I keep people at pretty arms length, including Ts.

Like I read about people like stalking their Ts in the grocery store and it scares me that I could ever feel THAT close to someone, that I felt I couldn't even approach them. That would be such an awkward boundary for me.

I had a T for three years previously and when I saw him in the grocery store or something I just walked right up to him and said hi, but to be honest I never really let him in, because he was male. So now I have this new T, who is female and I am scared to get close to her, because I am scared I will start acting like some of the things that I see here. And honestly, not to offend anyone, but some of it is just over the top for me.

I am afraid that since I have never let anyone in, that once I do, I will become black and white about it and start to do the things that is explained on the boards. I am very nervous about this.

I try so hard not to read the stuff, because it does make me so anxious, but it's so hard not to. I feel like I'm reading my fate. That I could dive into a therapeutic relationship with someone and in the end it could end up hurting me.