Hey thanks for the responses...this is just so difficult I mean I don't even know how to explain it to anyone in my family.I just feel bad about it sometimes like today my brother had some field day thing at school and I know he would have like if I showed up but I just cant deal with being around a school because of the PTSD so I didn't go because I really didn't want my symtoms triggered. I mean I was already on edge because someone insulted me over the internet but I wont go into that as that would probably violate site rules.