I'm sorry I snapped. I have a big gap now too and I'm ashamed. The bad voices in my head taunt me with: Why haven't I applied for more jobs? Why haven't I made more of an effort?

Emotional pain is the equivalent of physical pain. My T just sent me an article that mentioned that when I said I don't think I can even make it to my appointment tomorrow.

It's like we all have broken arms and people are just telling us we're lazy!! I literally want to stab my ****ing eyes out! I want to do physical harm to myself everyday. I'm in agony. I hate myself down to the very core of my being. I'm not just lazy!!!

(also I am having a rough night) I apologize for the rant.