Hey is there any way to get past this?....I mean I feel like such a burden to everyone, I mean I even keep avoiding my brother because sometimes I just want to end it...but I don't want to hurt him or anyone else, its just hard pain to keep under control. That feels like such a stupid question but my brother needs me so I can't go and do that...it's just so frusterating trying to find a reason to live just so I don't abandon people I care about.