It feels like everything- fantastic and exciting sometimes, then without much warning it feels like the deepest pit you will ever fall into. You will never accept it- you will go from begging for help with depression and suicidal thoughts to throwing your meds away because they supress your energy and genius. You will sometimes sleep for 16 hours a day, sometimes 7, sometimes not at all. You will have trouble planning anything because you have no idea who you will wake up to find that day. My advice is this- go on meds now and do not ever stop them. I stopped mine again about 4 weeks ago and thought I could sustain the beautiful mania but I can't, and now I am trying to figure out the quickest way out of the sheer hell that is my life. Don't make my mistake. Swallow the pills without thinking about it, then go about your life. Best of luck to you.