You are not a horrible person. You should feel exactly how you do about it. These are your feelings, it a very personal choice and no one is going to feel the same about it. I've been in this position, I made a choice and I am not in turmoil over it. It wasn't an easy choice in some ways, but in some ways it was. I did feel guilt, but I know I made the right choice for myself and for my children I already have.

Don't let anyone make you feel otherwise about this, your entitled to feel how you do and choose what you choose. Unless Harper takes the right from us. And that would be a terrible day.

It sounds like you know what is best for yourself and your husband. I wouldn't wait to long to go get a pregnancy test. Since your in Canada that's pretty easy assuming you have health care. The sooner you know the better, especially if you choose to terminate.

It could just be from being underweight and stress, this has happened to me. If that's the case you should ask your dr for some blood tests and make sure you are not becoming malnourished. That's very easy to do, harder to correct.

Please take care and know you are not a terrible person. Trust your own instincts with this, only you know what's best. Xox