Thanks for posting this, Serotonin. It was an inspirational read and gave me some hope to see someone who is in a place I'm trying to get closer to.

I have had depression, and probably a number of other disorders, since I was 10 years old. I'm 28 now. I have grown a lot during my 20's, and it's like night and day now when I think about the changes I've made. However, I still smoke pot regularly, and feel overwhelmed by insecurity/loneliness when I attempt to quit. I am getting better at it with each attempt to quit, but still have not found a way to maintain. As far as I'm concerned, this is the last part of my old self to go. I'll always carry some form of depression, but I can manage it. I just need to kick the smoking.

I would be curious to hear you talk a little bit about any experiences you had with needing other people because you were/are alone, and how you confront that. Seems to be what gets me every single time.

PS: I have been dabbling more into reading on meditation and Buddhism again lately and am also finding that to be helpful. And yes, self-help literature helps tremendously.