I get that anxiety about everything, nonstop feeling of fear and the sudden sensation of that feeling not being there anymore. It is a high for sure. Never any reason. It happens to me with many things, I remember once, as a teen, I was having this idea that I was infected with worms who were catalists to various messages, silly things, another very detailed universe really, tormented for months on end, and suddenly one day I had an image of them being torn away and I was fine after that and instantly, even recognized how dellusional I was the moment it happened.

I don't expect the dellusional bit, but is that what you're getting? Random and sudden relief? Psychiatrist chalked it up to bipolar, but I don't know if she realized how literal I was being, I mean instant spontaneous relief after months of suffering. Is that bipolar?