Hi beth.

You told all of us here, and we don't think you're crazy. So not everyone would think you're crazy. Dealing with eating disorders is hard on your own, impossible even. You really do need to consider finding help - a support group, a therapist, a nutritionist, a doctor... anyone who you can trust enough to let them help you. But they can only help you so much, you also have to want to help yourself.

Eating disorders are hard to control. I'm sorry you're dealing with so much.