I am so angry at my mother - I e-mailed her last night about having a bad exam (didn't even mention the panic) and she just said for me to drug myself. It's the only way she can think, telling me to drug myself, and I'm really afraid she'll dismiss how I feel just because she thinks I'm mentally ill.
I rang the crisis hotline here because I was so distressed, and even that lady said I should just go drug myself and told me that obviously I need the drugs because I'm so "depressed".
Everywhere, people tell me I'm mentally ill. I'M NOT MENTALLY ILL. I am more accomplished and educated than most "normal" people will ever be, and I did it all on my own in the face of extreme torture and abuse. No wonder I'm a wee bit unhappy at times. My "psychosis" has nothing to do with it whatsoever. I've been psychotic for as long as I can remember but I have always been capable - except for the years I was drugged. And yet, all anybody can see about me is this "illness" my abusers said I have.