Hi AidenDaniels, I understand how you feel about your low self-esteem being in the floor. Although I have a slightly different story, I like to describe it as being in a hole where it seems things just turn from bad to worst. I also understand how it feels a bit awkward to bring your emotions and feelings to the surface as I am a man as well and I can tell you we men tend to not want to show our emotions as it "may make us appear" weak and even a bit girly at times. Well I can tell you first that storing your emotions inside is one of the worst things you can do. You store all that stuff inside and it just keeps growing like a ball until it gets so big at one point ready to burst out, and usually not very good things are associated with that.

I would recommend you educate yourself, not talking about school necessarily, but if you have the desire to succeed, and become more confident...Then you must take action to make it happen! For a long time I myself was beating myself up but later realized that I was wasting that time, when I decided to immerse myself in learning about who I was, and my personal growth and development many things started to change inside. But the fascinating thing is that as I changed in a positive way on the inside, I started seeing positive changes on the outside.

Life it seems, gives you more of what you feel and think about most. So make the decision to gain control of your own life and start changing your attitude, associate with positive people and activities, and everyday express feelings of gratitude for not what you lack but what you have! As you start a journey into practicing positive thinking many great things will begin to happen.

The key however, is to do it consistently in an ongoing basis. There is a famous quote that says "Man is but the product of his thoughts, what he thinks, he becomes" So fill you mind with things that make you feel enthusiastic, optimistic, motivated, confident, and keep on doing it until your subconscious mind accepts them as a new default and you will start to see great things happen!