Rather than start a new thread, I'll just post here.

I no longer know what diagnosis I have. I'm just a bunch of uncontroled emotions and unable to concentrate on anything I'm not interested in. I have started dbt therapy, but it feels more like a grin and bear it style - with distractions. I think my failure is thinking I'm special. Others are just as uncomfortable as I am. I'm not worse off than many people, but I'm a baby because I can't stop feeling frustrated.

I don't want to accept the world - my life - the way it is, but I feel powerless to change it. Even writing it makes me feel like a baby. Oh well, I can't accept the alternative and my family needs money, so I'll try to cope/endure until I can find the secret answer to happiness (there is none I assume)