(((Mogie))),

Yes, me too, but with PTSD that is what happens we go round and round with things.
I know, it is tiring and there is a wonder WHY this happens as though you are stuck.
And it gets frustrating that others don't understand how challenging it is, and sometimes that can lead to anger and frustration, even be a trigger in itself.

At least you felt better and in that will realize that when the rounds come and trouble you and stress you, remember they do pass. The goal is to get past this to finding a new way to feel safe in yourself. Yes, this takes time and a lot of validation and often many rounds where you feel down like you discribed above. Yes, I have that too and I can say that I hate it as well. No, you cannot rush it even when you really want to. It truely has to run it's course and you have to allow yourself time and patience with it. I know, it is very frustrating, me too and unfortunately that is PTSD.

Keep going to your therapist and let it out, don't worry about bothering your therapist, that feeling is most likely a self denial you were taught unknowingly I have that as well. Just keep trying and be patient and kind to yourself. Come and vent, cry, ask when you need to here. As I mentioned at least you can be with others that know what you are talking about and struggle with it as well.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes