((((Hellion)))),

I hear you Hellion, and YES, it is very difficult to manage life AND try to recover from PTSD. I get angry myself as I hear of lots of people who try very hard inspite of struggling with PTSD. I have been working too along with struggling with PTSD and as you may know I am even struggling with a lawsuite that has been allowed to go on and on as well. I really get angry that I am asked to do so much while I am truely struggling. I feel like I want to scream out how very real this disorder is and people who are struggling NEED HELP AND TIME TO REALLY HEAL.

I really try to be thankful that there is a recognition of PTSD now, I can't imagine what it was like for so many people before the awareness of what PTSD is came about. People went unheard and denied and were even branded as weak or crazy or selfish for so long, how awful. But I know we still have much more awareness to be put out in society that truely caters to the people who suffer PTSD to have a chance to truely recover. No one wants PTSD, it feels like a prison and it is very lonely too.
I know that it has a way of disturbing normal goals and desires to continue to achieve and thrive. I struggle with that myself and I really try to be patient with myself inspite of the way my own family lacks the understanding of my struggle. I hear things all the time that say "JUST GET OVER IT AND DEAL" and it only makes me feel like a failure as I continue to try and yet struggle.

Hellion, I am so sorry that you are struggling, I am sorry for anyone who is struggling with PTSD and courageously trying to deal with it and keep going. Just know that there IS studies being done on it even now and more awareness is taking place. I wish I was younger, I would go back to school and get whatever I need to spend my life helping others overcome this disorder as well as make it a requirement that families be educated on HOW to support their family members that do really suffer.

In my opinion no one should suffer alone, there should be NO SHAME when someone needs to say, I HAVE PTSD. It doesn't mean someone is crazy, it means someone has been hurt and needs time and support to help them heal. It is very hard to work on recovering from PTSD when people who struggle with it are constantly misunderstood and denied and even invalidated. But we are getting close and can now actually see there is a pathology that shows there are things within the brain that are effected. So we are edging closer to slowly establishing more awareness about it.

Keep coming here for support Hellion and I hope you find your way to keep trying to get the help you need, which should be at the very least therapy. Hellion, don't give up, yes it is a challenge but you CAN grow stronger in time with patience.

((((Hugs)))))
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