Well, first off, I wouldn't trust anyone but him with my feelings and i would have gone to my father sooner to get help for my anxiety. Then i feel like i could talk to a T rather than people who just want me to stop talking. But i just want him to see that i know it should be like this and I'm working on making it different and healthier for both of us. But i don't know how to convey that to him. Also, I want to say to him lets go on actual dates. Most of the time we would just hang out at the bar near his house or at his house in his room watching him play video games. Before he moved closer, he lived in a less stressful environment and thats when everything was super awesome!