Your attitude is wrong, hun. I've always been a loner. When I was young, I used to care and want friends and try to fit in but I've always been kinda weird. "Weird"... That's how most people who don't know me would describe me, even to this day. But eventually I gave up trying to be cool and it seemed like once I gave up, people wanted to be my friend. But I didn't give a crap anymore. I now embrace myself for being different. I love that I'm not like everybody else and I don't want to be! I hope you can find some inner peace about it. Perhaps some therapy would help?? Good luck to you, hun!