hey.

i had a lot of similar ideas re gov, "system", etc when i was psychotic. i've been "stable" for some time now but i am still totally convinced that there are dark forces at work in the world, with the concerted aim of establishing a totalitarian police state, new world order, whatever u like to call it.

i smoke a lot of pot and give it credit for lifting a veil from my eyes re the real state of affairs in the world.

ppl often say that paranoia in a person like me is a sign of illness, but i think that these days, at least some forms of paranoia is totally justified. this depends on the person of course, but in my case, just observing global patterns makes it abindantly clear that we are not being told the real deal.

i'm told by those who care about me (and those who say they care!) to stop smokin, but in addition to helping me comprehend what i see as reality, it is a source of joy (zyprexa deadens my feelings)

what ye guys think?