((((Roam)))) Although, our Dx are a little different, I can completely relate to what you are writing.

When I first started with my current T, I too felt as though I'd been in a cave. I'd been isolating more and more until I did not even leave the house. I didn't want to burden anyone (friends/family) with my situation, so I just stopped talking. I felt "frozen" as well.

When I have felt extreme fear or anger, I feel frozen, as well. I freeze or clam up. I literally lose my voice. If I do have to speak, my own voice sounds foreign and forced.

My T and I are working on healing my thought processes and brain, so when I do feel pain, I don't spiral into complete misery. Instead, I acknowledge that it hurt and then say positive affirmations to counter the hurtful thinking. It's very difficult and it's a tough road but I'm working on it inch by inch.

(just a thought...when I received my Dx, I felt relieved! Literally. After all of these years of improper Dx, I felt lighter and as if a light had gone on over my head. Have you considered getting another opinion regarding your Dx. Perhaps it just doesn't "fit" or "make sense" and that is why you are struggling).

Also, it's certainly NO FUN at all to know you aren't feeling well. And there is such a stigma attached to MI that it makes it a million times harder because you really can't talk to anyone about it AND even if you did, meh. you don't know what kind of reaction you'll get

It's not like the Pro Sports Teams where everyone wears pink for a month and honors us, or wears yellow and runs marathons for the cause.

Please continue to post. you are not alone.