I emailed T this morn saying I wasn't feeling well and wouldn't make it to session...which is kinda true I don't feel good-I just want to stay in bed all day-my body hurts.
T wrote back "let me know if you start feeling better. I will be there at 5"
I debated for a few hours and them told him I'll go...I'm like terrified of the session tonigt because on top of the hug issue we are processing my confession about porn...and having sexual thoughts about him-not having it with him-that would just creep me out-but curiosity about his sexual thoughts and life...ugg soo embarrassing-I don't want to go...