i wonder if im going to hell anytime soon.
hell is...the hospital.
the empty hands of uncaring mental health professionals.
psychiatry.
america.
and neighboring countries that have put me on their hate list of socially abnormal people.

i used to channel my life into One Life To Live
and they took that away to.
they know. oh they know.
they do.
the immense provocative deep colors of people on that show.
the deeper the color the more immense or provocative they are.
i would be a primary color of red.
with a shade of black.
maybe if everyone was a shade of gray we wouldnt have to look too hard for flaws.