I really feel for you and I understand. I was such a social outcast. Now, I'm not a doctor or scientist or anything, but I have observed my life and friends or lack of them. I think people connect on some other level than just talking and seeing. I don't know if it is some sort of pharamone or "psychic" thing or what, but I honestly believe that some people put off some type of vibe that draws people to them, others that are average, then some that drive people away.

Let's take me and my husband. Everywhere he goes people are drawn to him. He's actually kind of shy but he's confident and a good leader. Even people who don't actually meet him in person are drawn to him. His mom says he's been that way his whole life. People want to be around him and follow him.

Then there's me. I'm very talkitive and friendly. However, it's almost like I have a sign on my head that says 'WEIRDO ALERT.' It's alsmost impossible for me to make friends. There's just something about me that puts people off. Even when I had friends I wasn't overly connected to them.

My advice is to "kill with kindess." Just be as friendly as possible. Try looking for groups that are based on things you enjoy. Don't try to "fit in" because people can tell when you're being fake, I think. Just practice being relaxed around people. This has made things better for me. People don't necessarily be my "friend" but they don't do the "here she comes, let's hide," routine, either.