I am very familiar with these feelings I am often nervous and sick to my stomach. I especially feel like I am going to throw when I am holding back communicating and not talking about things that are really bothering me.

They can be symptoms of anxiety.

Remedies: I had a physical to rule out any other medical conditions. I see my Pdoc every 3 months. Go to my T once (or twice) a week whether I want to or not. Write in my journal. Come on PC and connect with others. I've also eliminated those people from my life that are not positive or helpful to my getting better ("toxic" people; abusive people; co-dependent people; judgmental people; controlling people). They only hinder my progress.

I also make a huge effort to NOT be hard on myself and to give myself a break when I make mistakes or things don't work out quite as I planned. I see myself as a work in progress

In the beginning, I felt like a complete dodo. But I've begun to ease up on myself. Kind of. I mean, we are definitely our BIGGEST critics. it's so easy to brush off the positive and only see the mistakes / blunders. I am working on focusing on the good stuff (my T and I talk about it in terms of re-wiring or re-routing my thinking).

It's one little teeny inch at a time. Sometimes two steps forward, one step back. What's really comforting is that I have a whole support group around me now that care and can relate and who understand