I feel borderline horrible for you having been around for my recent breakdowns & yet I'm not there for yours... I hope by now you've recovered at least a little bit. :/

Honestly, I wish I knew what to tell you. Although it doesn't feel like it right now, your responses show incredible clarity as time has progressed. So you're getting the tiniest bit better as you carry on. It's not going to last forever, though it definitely ****ing feels like it. *hug*

As for psychotic PMS? EVERY ****ING MONTH. No joke. About a week, week & a half before my period... I lose base with reality, my mood episodes start up in one direction or the other, & it doesn't cease until maybe the last day before it ends. ****ing weird, but you're not the only one.