I am off hard whiskys I haven't done anything wrong after the blow up, I have been building I thought but I think is to late,love is nothing to do with it, if anything I love to much,a person or a man can only take so much abuse when U give give give and nothing but smashed inside you get back ,she not 4 real she held back not I, I was real in are marriage, she is one that wasn't ,not my fault she could not be honest with me. I wasn't a acholic 20years. U say I have to rebuild, I not the lier in this one not I.I have done everything and more as husband can possible do. Same job for 18 years never missed a day work in 26 years never unemployed,never had to want,new home not sure of your expectations but apparently U had a real bad experiences.I only had a couple few maybe at best problems besides my kids issues,I am were I am now because my kids issues I am old school my bad just the way I am I can't change that and have no want to even try.