(Purplelephant) I restrict intake, count calories, purge, exercise lots, take diet pills, take energy pills, feel guilty all the time about food, track food, avoid meals. Tried meds and counseling. counselor wanted to get into abusive past and sh$*, but I can't. Wanted me to try other meds. Can't!!! I think the above is normal to some degree. The pain is too great. Can't deal with stuff. So I just function in what seems to be normalcy for me. It just gets to be too much.

(Avoice) I feel beyond help - probably because I can't seem to want it bad enough, I guess. sorry!

Anyway, today I was too tired to go to gym. Worked too much. Just want to curl up and cry.... pressure, pressure, pressure!!!!