I spoke to my T about the fact that I am worried about becoming too dependant on her. She asked me what my definition of too dependant is. I realised then that I didn't really know, just that I was more dependant on her than I would like. I guess I start feeling anxious when I am more vulnerable than the other person. When I am more dependant on them that they are on me. That is when I get uncomfortable and want to create some distance. I think about T all the time but I doubt she ever thinks of me outside of session. I don't know how I am going to be able to talk to her about this; I feel anxious just thinking about it!
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