It's May now and still very much unemployed. Going on 16 months of unemployment, not including some part-time assisted employment provided by the job agency.

My internet use is a big problem. I think I have to set a goal that I don't use the internet before 2pm on any given day. I was job searching until 12 pm today which is an improvement on recent efforts.

Looking back on my life and it's been a big waste of time. I'll put the productive years in bold.

1997 - College until July, failed mid year so unemployed for half of 97
1998 - College, failed end of year
1999 - College, passed first year
2000 - College, failed mid year, started year again in July
2001 - College, failed, quit in June. Unemployed for the rest of the year
2002 - Employed Jan to Mar, unemployed Mar to Sep, September started new job where I would stay for 2 years
2003 - Employed
2004 - Employed until September - quit due to bullying and anorexia
2005 - unemployed until august, temp work for 3 months,
2006 - temp work until June, part time work as well as full time work until June, part time work only for the rest of the year.
2007 - part time work only until December where I was fired due to health/anxiety problems
2008 - unemployed, lots of anxiety problems, worried i was dying
2009 - unemployed until mid 2009, anxiety better
2010 - employed until mid 2010, then unemployed until Nov, then employed for the rest of the year
2011 - lost my job in Feb. Unemployed since then.

So in the 15 years since 1996, I have:

1 year of school
4 and a half years full time
2 and a half years part time (some concurrent with the full time)

I'm desperate to stop this trend where I waste my life completely. It's basically like I'm in prison.