I can't be a lot of help, since I have no direct experience with this. All I can do is bring up a few questions to think about. Do you know if your feelings are reciprocated? They could be anywhere from openly welcomed to considered repulsive depending on the individual's tastes and orientation. Is she also part of this church community? Is the church community open to same sex relationships? I was raised in a very strictly anti-homosexual church, but I have a college friend who is both an ordained minister and an open lesbian. Churches vary widely in their acceptance. No, you can't control who you have feelings for, but you can control the actions you take based on your feelings. I hope this helps you to find a little direction. Best of luck to you.