ok so some of you may know that i've been really depressed lately. in my last post i told you that i went to a doctor who gave me an initial diagnosis. we haven't discussed meds because i wanted to know more. but that was it. then i knew that my doctor is moving to another city. anyway i went to a new psychiatrist 3 days ago. and it was, i don't know, strange. i knew i should've made a list of everything i wanted to tell him. my head has a very annoying habit of going blank when i need important information. but as expected i didn't write anything down. all that managed to come out was that i'm really depressed, tired, irritable, forgetful and experiencing persistent obsessive thoughts. it was horrible. he was asking me questions and at times i was like i don't know, i'm not sure, its hard to say. i said almost nothing about manic symptoms.
but he gave me meds. is that normal? from the first time? maybe its my delusional paranoia but i felt like he was trying to cut it short and treat the symptoms. i was alone with him for no more than 15 mins. when he found that i didn't have much to say ( which couldn't be further from the truth!) he was asking me hows my mood, sleep, if was experiencing psychosis. i felt that he should've been more specific because these broad terms were just words to me and i wasn't accurate with my answers. urgh never mind i feel like i ruined it.
these are the meds he gave me. Moodapex 50 ml + (2) Dogmtail 50 ml + (1/2) Remeron 30 ml. these are the daily doses. please let me know what you think, if you've ever been on them, if i should prepare for any side effects? i've been on them for almost 2 days know. i feel less anxiety which is great but i'm sleepy & needing much more sleep. my finals are in 2 weeks and all i want is to function until then.
but its kinda hard to say about the depression. i still feel it. but not as bad as it was last week.