scilence, it is totally understandable that if you JUST admitted to the physical and sexual abuse, talking about it out loud is still going to be very difficult and it feels like it is impossible. I am in my 40's and only recently admitted to the sexual abuse really. For a while, I would sometimes admit it and sometimes deny it and mainly just never ever thought about it. I have been in therapy for two years this month and we are just now getting to the sexual stuff. As others have said, tell the T that you have trouble talking about it.

My T and I have spent a bunch of sessions 'talking about talking about it' and my fears of what happens if I talk about, what to expect in terms of reactions afterward, and my T spends a lot of time talking about 'normal' responses to abuse. I feel like this has been really beneficial for me. Oh, and also, he spent time teaching me coping strategies to use for the emotions that will inevitably come up in the course of finally dealing with these things, so maybe that is a good place to start as well: grounding techniques, calming and self soothing techniques, etc.