I think I can deal with the initial paper work.......I did apply once and got denied, and didn't end up appealing it. Also yeah I have heard its possible some don't charge you if you don't win it. I guess the other issue is I am not sure how one even approaches a lawyer to help with that process. I always get really anxious about even thinking of calling one I mean especially over the phone I question my abilities to describe things well.......and I guess I just don't know how I would take it if they started getting rude or something because they thought I was BSing or something. I don't handle that sort of thing very well and I feel like applying for SSI the odds are against me so I'll already be essentially having to prove I have the issues I've been struggling with so I can convince people that are more or less hellbent on denying me that they should in fact help.

I guess the idea is the Lawyer is supposed to be on my side though. But yeah one of the biggest issues for me is just the stress and anxiety about it.