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Red_Cyclops · May 16, 2012, 03:57 PM

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Originally Posted by bowhunt72

I find it challenging, because I'm not living alone by choice. I miss having my wife and kids around, and I even miss my dog. I'm living in a little rathole apartment in a city, and I hate cities. I'm a country boy - I own 17 acres on a dirt road up in the hills with some of the best deer hunting in Ohio.

I'm alone now because I just came off a roughly 4 month mania when I decided that leaving my wife and kids for an old lover would be a good idea and would make me happy for the rest of my life. She left me for reasons of her own, and now I'm stuck here by myself because my wife and kids don't want me back, at least not yet. We're working toward reconciliation, but it is a long slow process.

There are a few advantages - the place stays clean, it's quiet, if I put something down it's still there when I come back for it - but on the whole I'd rather be back at my real home with my family.

Bowhunt72:

Hang in there. I had a similar issue about 4 years ago and thought a woman I met at work was the answer to all my problems. I was manic, and then incredibly depressed when I had to go home to a life I didn't feel I wanted anymore. Eventually I needed to be alone for a little bit. Once I got regulated with proper meds and made sense of everything, I was able to see what I had done to myself and others. It took time, but it worked out and I'm much better off now, having reconciled with my wife. You can get there too, just think about what is really important, and remember that the grass is not always greener...I learned that quickly - I really did have a decent life, I just didn't know it at the time. Take care.