Of course you deserve someone to hold onto and confide in, we all do. Never ever think you don't deserve it.

I know what you mean about feeling alone in a room full of people. It's as if you are watching on the outside and you would much rather feel a part of the moment but you can't help but be on the outside. It is that constant disconnect. I'm better in a one on one environment if its a group forget it.

I've had hard time in the love department myself. It takes a lot for someone to spark that feeling in me and these days I'm just not feeling it at all. I think it's because I have so many other things going on in my head that I need to address first( maybe you too?).One of my biggest problems is trust.