my fault really.

but in reality you cant tell them the truth.
at least where i am if you do they will involuntarily commit you.
and someone whose like me who tries to avoid it. it doesnt help.
but to me it doesnt help anyway even if i didnt avoid it.
i never found help with that from meds. i mean the way i personally feel..
...and i really havent said how ive felt..so.yea.