(((((((newtus))))))
I'm hoping you mean you want to spill your guts here in posting. If you are feeling a serious need to physically harm yourself now, please call for help: 800-273-8255 if you dont have someone to call.

If you just feel the need to be in touch here, here we are. But please know that jumping from 1-story buildings will hurt you a lot and might kill if you hit right sensitive part. Mostly it's for sure just going to break a bunch of bones and hurt. Please don't put yourself through this!

I dont know very much about SI but do understand that it sometimes can be calming as an alcoholic (like me) will find a swallow of scotch from a bottle. But it just leads to the need for more--it's no answer.

Do you have a T you've worked with? Can you/do you still connect?

Roadie