Ok geez, yes it can be hard. Just let things happen and make sure you keep talking.
Don't try to think about how LONG anything is going to take. I can relate to those deep ingrained feelings, people who have been abused or struggled with some kind of neglect as a child can present those feelings. That is totally NOT YOUR FAULT, and you will have to greive that too. Just keep trying geez. You are doing well even though it may not feel like it.

(((hugs))))
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