Getting better is such a foreign concept, i cant begin to imagine it. I dont feel like i can trust anyone, like my T tells me i cud trust him and that his office is safe to talk but im still to scared and scared if betrayel. Of course i feel like that that about myself. WT am i supposed to identify myself with, beauty or angel. Thnx but no thx. So i feel tvat way most teens do. Its like so stupid to change your name maybe like cowardly. Its pathetic, this is wat i chose in my drunken state and so ill deal with it.