relationships are complicated. everybody carries their own baggage. i wouldnt necessarily blame it on the other person for not accepting me, but their own crap making them incapable of being open to healthily function in a relationship. i gave up on relationships a long time ago because i felt i couldnt find somebody to accept me. i thought i was too damaged, that i wasnt worthy of love. i thought if i could find someone to accept me for who i was it would mean that i was worthy. i only attracted controlling abusive men. it just wasnt worth it to me any more. i would be better off alone than to deal with that anymore. i would be open to a relationship now but it scares me. i want happiness and that has never happened in a relationship before. am i healthy enough to do it? i have always given my all and not gotten that in return. im like you. why cant someone just love and accept me for who i am?