I've had a lot of confusion about my dx. My own pdoc has called me BP for several years, but I wasn't sure I believed her. Big case of denial along with not really remembering any manic episodes, but looking back they were there. My other pdoc, that I see only for my ECT (electroconvulsive therapy) has me dx only as major depression, recurrent, but he's only seen me depressed, not manic. My pdoc finally made it clear that I am definitely Bipolar I after this last big manic episode, so I guess it's a relief to finally be able to put a name to it. I feel like now that it's "official" I can get to work on managing it better and try to make my life as normal as possible.