I think it is good to wait until you're older if you think married life is going to be perfect. Even though I don't think like that(HONESTLY!) I'm starting to think that I only want to be in a relationship so bad is because I don't have any friends and I'm alone ALL day. Sometimes by choice but mostly because I have no one to talk to. I'm not really keen on going outside by myslf which makes it kind of difficult to get a job. Or take walks by myself because I'm so paranoid. But in school I wasn't paranoid because mostly everyone was making fun of me. Which is why I get homeschooled now. Marriage is not something I always think about. I want to be a writer. I want to get baptized and do both these things before I get married. But I've been really depressed. I don't think I'm suicidal but I do think about death a lot. I guess what I want is is a friend. But I'm not planning on getting married until I get better. Thinking about getting married sort of makes me happy because it maens I haven't tottaly given up yet.
Thanks
Miara