I do feel sort of like that. I was actually talking to my bf last night about it actually. I posted something sort of similar a long time ago. I received some flack for it, but I think I was really misunderstood. What I'm trying to say doesn't always come out clearly.

Ever notice on the utopian movies that things usually go wrong? Well in the movies they have to, if it went really well there would be no conflict or drama and who would watch that. I would live to love in a society that was free from abuse and all the other bad stuff, I've seen and dealt with enough of it. I struggle with this a lot. I sometimes feel like I'm not of the world, I struggle with .. Is how I feel healthy or harming me.

I don't think it is harming me, what's harming me is all the bad stuff going on. Maybe I'm highly sensitive to it, maybe I should have a thicker skin or psyche. However it takes all kinds to make this world go round and balance it out.

Right now I've been pretty upset because the valley I live in is covered in smog. The people here call it "haze". You used to be able to see the mountains clearly, now they look blue, and foggy. Calling it haze reminds me of the London Fog and we saw what happened with that. But it seems like a lot of people, government ect. just don't care, it makes me depressed and feel helpless. Anyways that's just my current issue. I totally get where your coming from.