Tom, I'm a vicitm of sexual abuse by my grandmother. That makes it homosexual rape and incest. Not only several of us granddaughters were vicitimized by this woman but she actually took one of my male cousins and tried to get him to violate me while she watched. When he couldn't "perform" she beat the both of us. This male cousin of mine is 11 yrs older than I am. When I was receiving therapy for my abuse, not limited to sexual, he was going to therapy for the same thing. I was 50 at the time.

Maybe the victimization of males isn't made public because for one reason, males don't tend to speak about their problems very easily. That's just a guess on my part, but there are very definitely males getting therapy for it.

Maybe the reason you hear more about female victims is because we're more outspoken when we feel someone has wronged us. Females tend to become attention getters a lot quicker than males.

Your rage is apparent in your post. I'm so sorry this happened to you, I'm sorry it happened to my cousins, too. I'm sorry it happened to me because it caused me to lose my innocence a whole lot sooner than any child needs to lose it. I not only lost that, but I lost a part of myself, I lost most of my childhood and I lost any sense of worth I might have had at that age. My therapist called it "soul murder." It murders the souls of little boys as well as that of little girls!

When I hear people talk about "guardian angels" I wonder where mine was. But in retrospect, if the things that happened to me hadn't, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I hope you find the help that you need so you can overcome all the scarring, pain and understandable rage you feel.

My heart goes out to you.

Tomi

<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>