"I told myself that ciggies weren't falling off the face of the earth and I could smoke if I wanted to, which strongly brought out the fact that I did not want to and this was a choice."

BeeBizzy... I do the same thing. I have one cigarette on my kitchen counter that I CHOOSE not to smoke. For me it helps knowing I am in control of this. It is my decision. And that makes me feel stronger. Thanks for sharing this!