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Originally Posted by hankster
it's a positive because you are being brave enough to say it. it's taking a risk. it IS scary. You're saying, YES, I AM GOING THERE! You obviously saw better than he did what happened, or at least you have your own version. T is NOT our abusive boyfriend, we are not gonna get smacked for saying, "uh, you know when you tripped back there? I need to talk about it." If T can't handle it, you need to move on, as you would if the boyfriend smacked you. But i'm pretty sure T can handle it.
ETA: and it's still important to talk about it, what it means for you two, not just here on PC.
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I sent him an email:
"I got home from session today feeling a little mixed up, and I couldn't figure out why. So I replayed the session over and over a few times and I figured it out. Remember when you stepped on the sign? I really don't want to talk about it, because I'm scared to, but at the same time I know I need to. That was the first time I think I've ever seen you experience your own emotions in front of me. Which was kind of confusing and unsettling. You were obviously pissed at the guy. Right away I felt the need to distract you, and I wondered why? So I thought about it for a while, and I think it was all the years I cared for my brother. Anytime I felt like there was a possible issue I learned to diffuse him through distraction. At the same time I felt it was my responsibility to care for you. I think I do that in all my relationships. Its weighed heavy on me through all these years, and still does. I think it's why I just isolate myself from my family now. I was always the caretaker, and today I felt that same need to do it with you. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel like distancing myself from you and therapy a bit now. I'm not entirely sure why, but I feel like running from this issue."
I'm so scared of his response.
