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Originally Posted by Tigressnred
I wasn't sure where else to post this so I thought this would be good. Okay a little history. I have been abused numerous times, in numerous ways from 2-17. I am now 37. I have kind of an odd thing that has happened to me. I have three different personalities inside me, they have different names, different mannerisms, different voices, different ages not to mention the different personalities evoke different emotions from me...ie Tigress-adult (makes me afraid, she is overbearing and controlling)...baby-4 (makes me feel silly and playful) and Katherine-16 (makes me feel grownup like someone is standing up for me) The thing is this is NOT MPD, or DID as I do not blackout or anything like that when the personalities switch. My T says based on the way I grew up, I just see the differences more distinctly than most people. I do know that all these personalities are just me, but the feelings evoked are so real and can send me into a panic very quickly. So I am wondering is this an offshoot of my PTSD or something different entirely? Does anyone else know what I am talking about?
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yes I understand what you are talking about ... here where I live and work the mental health community believes everyone even normal people have different "parts" of their self. these different parts of self are what some people and places call "roles", "alter egos" and "the child within".
the basic premise of this is that everyone acts different ways at different times...
examples
when I'm with my wife hiking or boating Im the calm relaxed part of myself, when I'm at work I'm the professional treatment provider part of myself, when I'm in church I'm the prim and proper part of myself.
some people because of stress, trauma and other factors can tell when their moods change so drastically that they seem to be a completely different person than they were a moment ago..
example
this week is career week at a few high schools and colleges. a co worker and I represent the crisis center I work at. we have to sit at this table 6 hours a day and explain our program and the benefits of our jobs. yesterday I was doing great answering questions, giving info and suddenly there in front of me was one of my clients.
I was very much in touch with my moods and how inside of me I was wanting to slip into the treatment provider part of me and knowing I had to stay with the presenter part of me.
the presenter part of me stood up and calmly introduced myself like I have done other times with those that come by our table. She took my hand and said relax doc (a joke between us because she hates the formalities of seeing a therapist) I just came by to say hi, love to work for you but I cant at this time, Im going out of town for the summer, I leave tomorrow. she had found a way to tell me she had to cancel her appointment and did so in the context of the situation and using her high school part of herself, instead of the familiar client self, so that her friends would not realize she and I already have a professional relationship.