I had a terrible nightmare the other day. It is odd because every time I take a nap mid-day for more than 30-45 mins I have a nightmare. Then as I am waking up I feel everything from my elbows down in severe pins and needles. I don't understand it and neither does my doctor.
Anyway, the dream was very involved as they always are and I keep playing one scene over and over in my head. My five year old daughter and I are on a cruise ship standing outside on deck, beside the edge. There are several people standing around with an air of tension. Two people is arguing but I don't remember what it's about or if I was one of them. Someone gets tossed overboard and instantly a child of 9 [ish] jumps overboard to help them. My daughter jumped next in her urgency to help as well. I stared down into the deep ocean bracing the side of the boat ready to jump when I think "I wont be any better off then them if I am not prepared" I asked if anyone saw flashlights around then demanded the life-floats as quickly as possible. I hesitated before jumping then I woke.
This dream has me so upset with myself, why did I hesitate before jumping in? I had to save my daughter, we were in the middle of the ocean and she can't swim. There could be sharks and the water is so deep it is black.
I have been terribly angry with myself over this, I should have acted as instantly as the others and jumped without thinking to save her from sinking into the depths of the deadly sea or drowning.

Ironically enough, a few days later after I finally revealed my nightmare to my fiance our daughter comes bouncing in a little bit later saying something about all of us going on a cruise together. I said "no, never. we are never going on a cruise, no boats." It is final.