I'm taking my meds. I was supposed to increase the Seroquel to 75 mg. and I didn't because the kids started getting stomach bugs one after another. I was afraid I wouldn't hear them if they woke up sick or would be really out of it and trying to take care of a sick and scared child at three in the morning. The last day of school is Wednesday and my husband is off work Wednesday, Thursday and Friday so Wednesday night might be a good time to up the dosage.

I guess this sudden (or what seems to be a sudden) worsening of symptoms is scaring me. I don't trust anyone fully because I'm convinced everybody is out to get me. I hear voices and keep seeing cats (weird, I know, but what isn't weird about hallucinations). I have this voice in my head that talks to me. I find myself having panic attacks because I get convinced some undefined bad thing is going to happen. I have off the wall thoughts about stuff--like thinking someone knows what I'm thinking about something or saying something crazy to someone I don't even know. Then I have a total "WTH is wrong with me?!" moment.

Sigh. Bipolar sucks so bad.