has left us in great distress. the session itself went very well but the aftermath isnt good. and we dont have the privilege of phone contact so the only thing left is email which right now just isnt enough. we are trying every coping skill we have doing our best to stay present and grounded but failing pretty badly. we havent actively acted on SI in a very long time but failed at that as well. it feels like the pain is eating at us like acid and now we have the agony of 2 entire weeks until our next session,yes we have asked for weekly but so far she has no openings. feeling so utterly hopeless right now and we hate that. we should be stronger. we should be smarter. we should not feel bad. but we fail. we fail. we are sorry.