Okay, this is going to sound weird. How can you tell the differences between depression and being stable? I've been doing this mood thing for the past four days and it seriously makes me look bad. I swear on paper I look like a mess but how would I know if I am a mess or just stable? I wish I never took up this project. I really don't want to do this for the next 5 days. I don't know if I'm just concentrating on negative things or what. She's going to think I'm a lot worse then I am. If I am this much of a mess how would I know if it's being stable or depressed? I don't know if what I recognized depression was a deep depression and this is lighter or if it's just because people look worse on paper.

If I don't make since sorry, I haven't sleep for at least 1.5 days because I just don't want to. I'll try to explain it differently if the post can't be understood.